Band Issues

Ok, so many of you don't know that I am a guitarist for my church's praise team. If you are reading this as a friend from then you might want to skip this blog, it's about church and stuff. I have been having the issue since we got into our new building of being able to hear myself play. Well, let me start by say that for the size of the church, we have a HUGE band. We average about 50 to 100 people a week, and a have a praise team of 10 to 15 people, if everyone is there. I play the acoustic guitar, and think that I am ok at it. I am still trying to get better at it though. There are 2 other guitars, one being a 12 string, and the other an electric. Well, the main issue is that the building is smaller than the team. It is so small in fact that I am squished into a side aisle in front of the house speakers. This brings about a really bad situtation. All I hear is whomever is coming out of that side of the speakers. The really bad thing about it is that it is all of the musicians. I think I would say that I start about 50 to 75% of our songs, and play in close to 100% of them all the time. Well, common sense would be that if someone is the lead guitar, you put them in the front, and make sure that they can hear themself. Well, that is not the case here. I very rarely can hear myself because the 12-string guitar is up so loud. Everytime we come in, that guitar gets turned up louder. Oh, and he is the only guitar that I can hear, or at least was till this week, when I could hear the electric really well too. Sad issue is that everyone thinks I am going deaf, and have on more than one occasion said so to my wife. The worse part is that no one will stand where I stand and listen. Oh did I mention that I stand on the same side as the drummer, and bass player? Yup, that's right all musicians on one side of the church, and all the singers on the other, and that includes in the speakers as well. So now you have the issue of the lead guitar not being able to hear where the lead singer is going! Oh this is great!!! And what do I get told? Pretty much to suck it up and deal with it. Well, maybe I got through to the leader, and things will change. If push really comes to shove, I might just sit back, and watch them implode without me there. I'm always getting the leader upset since I've been taking off a lot recently. We will see

Holy Cow....I'm Gonna Be A Dad

Yes world, it is true. I, programming4life, will have a little head here on the earth in about 7 months to continue on in my footsteps of terrorizing the human race! I am still not sure how it happened, all I know is I was there for the event, I think!!! The baby is no bigger than a grain of rice at a whopping 4.6 mm long, and it has a heart rate of 120 bpm! I am a happy guy right now, but still nervous! There are so many things going on right now that I am not sure whether or not I am ready for this. Well, ready or not, here it comes. I am just hopeing for a boy. If it is a girl, watch out world 'cause I'll be armed. Already have plans to get a 9 mm handgun, and maybe a few other pieces to scare the tar out of any guy that wants to date her. Now the biggest arguement that the wife and I are having is about names. I want Michael Alexander if it is a boy, and she wants Joseph Michael. I guess I like exotic, not normal names, but won't be naming my kids like the Hollywood stars do! Once I can get the ultrasound pics off of my phone, I will post them.

Wow, has it been that long?

Ok, so it has been a long time since I last was here. Not by choice, even though I don't think I have any readers, but it is nice to get somethings off my chest. So here we go. Over the last month, the wife and I have really been struggling financially. I mean really struggling. We have currently pawned our wedding rings, and might end up losing them if I can't get the money soon, our digital camera, and my mp3 player, with about a week and a half left till we lose them as well. So I am kinda upset about the money situation. On top of that, I had pawned my guitar, which I use every Sunday at church, but the church paid for me to get it back. Well, now here it is, the weekend before a pay week, there is $10 in hand, nothing in the bank, and no sign of relief anywhere on the Horizon. Well, this is just the tip of the iceberg. The utility company, who just got allowed to start making the rates jump out of control, called, and are wanting money for the services provided. Well, we don't have it, and are looking at having the lights turned off. On top of that, my car insurance has been cancelled, and I am now driving without it. Couldn't pay two months in a row, and we are behind again on the car payment. To top all that off, my parents called, and are going to evict us from out apartment since we are behind, and my wife just announced last week that she is PREGNANT!!!! Yes world, it is time to terrorize you with a miniature version of me.
Now what am I gonna do? No money, possibly no car, or house, working full-time, and a full-time student. I am thinking of a second job, and she is trying to get a job for up till the baby is due. Lord only knows how far along she is. This is about the time that I am to start feeling hopeless right? I mean look around me, all the circumstances are showing me that nothing is going to get better, and that I am going to drowned in debt. Saying all this, I am reminded of what Paul wrote in the Bible, "For whatsoever state I am in, there I will be content!" Content? How am I to be CONTENT? Nothing seems to be going right. And then, I am reminded of another passage of Scripture that says, "I have never seen the righteous forsaken, nor His seed begging for bread"
Some how, I know that God will provide for He is my Provider. I don't know where it will come from, but I have to do like the song says, "I walk, by Faith, each step by faith, to live, by faith, I'll put my trust in You!" Trusting in Him, it's the hardest thing that I have to do. Writing a program, or query is easy stuff compared to trusting in God. Some people say that it is impossible to trust in something that you can not see. But you don't see the wind do you? No, you see the affects of the wind.
So over everything that is going wrong, I have to trust that God is watching me, and looking out for me to make sure that everthing happens in His timing.